my family is a burden to you and even to me.
so i deserved to be left aside?
so i deserved to being put in a isolated cell? i can see surrounding but i can't feel anything.
sometimes get happening but i can't do anything. i feel it's about both parties. i thought after that "911", things can be better. Eventually after that day, everything seems so "nothing had happen before". that feel really scared me at the moment but i was told not think so much.
am i really that bad? that to the extend...? i really don't know what to say and how to express.. i feel like i'm really the lost one.. things kept happening and makes me feel so uncertain where i stand and where i belong.
if i am not wrong? we are going to mama's house? am i right?
ohh.. mum wants me bring some items home. so can i take train to kovan, take from her which takes the most 15minutes and direct myself home?(for my info: i took 10mins) so so.. all and all, it only take the most 10minutes extra and i reached mum's house at 7.10pm. Let's say, if i take train to amk and take bus, what time will i reach mum's house? isn't it plus and minus?
if kovan is not a presant place? we can have alternative, like meet at mum's house? just that i can't accompany you. so what's wrong with me that i did anything wrong?
mum wants me to carry stuffs?
i want? nope.. i hate it the most. but i only have 1 mum. what to do. :`(
so what happen to you? is it that you dislike my last mintue plan or dislike how my mum treat me or it's in me?
if last min plan? really not i want..
if dislike how my mum treat me? why i am inside ice palace now..
if it's me? what did i do wrong? and no one tells me and i don't see what i had done wrong.
When i told you, i going to carry stuff from my mum. i was happy cause i know mum wasn't at home. (not at home, you'll be happy)
But but... when i told you about it, your voice totally changed. i feel and was about to propose you an alternative plans. example; see you at mama's house like same timing if i meet u at amk. but i didn't cause... since 1 side is "tired", how can u makes both sides to do clapping game? if can, how can it be fun?
how are you? how am i? i really really tired and can't sleep. really lost and can't see myself.. i know study is important. But if studies come 1st, so i'm 2nd or? don't telll me, am i actually your 1st? if that so.., i only derseve to *Ring.....* "Wei wei... wad're u doing? want to sleep le ah? ok.... ok...? (pls talk more) hao ba. wan an. :( " (for my info: since exam coming, i keep wanting to spend more times with you but...)
when can i meet you? hope you knows in the 1st place that i can't meet tomorrow casue either today or tomorrow it's shawn's birthday celebration. so wed, but how we face one another?
act like nothing or...?

so this is how i should be treated? why am i your future husband, boyfriend or whatever? don't tell me, your mum is right from the start?
i'm going crazy... real crazy with head keep spinning....

Incoming...

Pushing, leading and all my life are planned "nicely" for me to walk through. Sometimes i want it my way, i'm not trying to be stubborn. But i have my plans too..
How to understand someone and give the best out of all? If both can't have the same concept of leading life, how can we manage it?
am i the trouble one?

coffee, tea or me?

If one day or maybe now, you really need to choose either studies or us...
Just follow your heart, maybe our love is just so crispy and weak..
We can't even compromise into our love.
Can't speak out when thing isn't right? Or is this how relationship should be, like not to speak out?

i can't neither sense you nor feel you when your heart are broken up into pieces, cause you're just so hard on appearance. i always have this feel that having me is a biggest mistake for you.
is there a need for you to consider me again?

i can't do anything now, i need to lay down now..

What is relationship?

i think i can't really make life easy for people.
i just want to make life easy and simple.
but no matter what i still make someone down.
is it very hard to be with me?
i always feel that i'm not good enough to at least make you comfortable with me.
and things always happen and allows me to feel this.
feeling is so strong, stronger and stronger..

i really don't know what is happening when someone don't speak out.
why human just don't speak out when something is not right.
maybe this is part of life, when you trying to play guessing game.
someone told me, "don't think so much, you always think so much."
i don't want to be a quitter, so either i can be a thinker or a waiter...
but if i don't be thinker when something is not right, then what is my next move?
be a waiter?

why can't people speak out and always like to come blog to speak out..
is it we can't trust one another or we can manage our circle of trust?

i'm really so lost and don't know what to do.. i can't be thinker for long..
make i only can be a waiter, wait for you blog and see what is happening.
if this thing really continue, maybe our relationship really need mayday.

seriously i feel like i'm a piece of junk, a person that can't be relay on...
really like a junk...

i though i love myself and really love you so deeply..
but what happen is, i think the person i dislike and hate the most is...
me, myself and my life....

i have no comment/s in life..

to be frank but i think i was wrong.
are we still together or....

Don't wait to be loved to love its the title
Turn back, my lover.
I never move, waiting for you to turn back.
While you leave me further and further,
what I only can do is to love you deeper and deeper.
Turn back, my dear.
I still stand here where you leave me alone.
I don't move course I'm afraid that once you turn back,
If I'm not here, I'll miss you.
Turn back, my heart.
If you have made decision, you'll never turn back.
I can say nothing but I will go.
I will go on the way which you are walking on.
I'm going the way to love you,
which you will love me so.
We're so in love.

Perhaps i need to have upgrade in my understanding skills.
Or anyone really understand me too?

Am i too much when handling in love? I really don't know. =(